And the date is confirmed….
December 15 has a lot of memories. After this year it will be the anniversary of my mastectomy WITH reconstruction. Prior to this year, it has been ingrained as the date of my mothers birth. To me, this is just pure irony. Honestly, the only thing that could be more ironic would be if the surgery date was scheduled for June 8- the anniversary of my mothers death but I don’t think I could even handle that one. My mother has been gone for so long now that it is not that I have forgotten her birthday it’s just that the date didn’t really come to mind.
I knew I was going to have to have my surgery around that time period because of my vacation schedule and to be quite frank, I really wanted the 17th which is a Friday. I actually could have had the 17th but it was my husband who convinced me the 15th was better. By doing it on the Wednesday I would be able to have both of my doctors check me out. If I did it on the Friday, neither of them would be there over the weekend to check on me and he didn’t seem to think that was okay. So, the 15th it was. It wasn’t until I got home that I was like, “wow….happy birthday, mom.”
In her honor
I have grown up always saying to myself, “my mom would be proud,” and while I think she would think this just plain sucks (that I have to go through this, I mean), I know she would be proud of me. So, with that said, why not honor her on her birthday?! It’s not like I can take her out to lunch, or go shopping with her….but what I can do is go through this surgery and say:
“Thank you mom. If it wasn’t for you I wouldn’t know that I carry this mutation and because I you, I am able to save my life. Happy birthday. I will always love you. XOXO”
I don’t know… I don’t think that’s such a bad birthday gift in her memory. =)
I am still 3 plus months away and I am in my excited phase. Not too many questions have come up but as we move closer I know more things will come across my mind and I will need to schedule additional appointments, etc. For now, I am just for happy with my team (Dr. Spear-PS, Dr. Willey-BS, and the Georgetown team). I am so happy I will be 15minutes from home surrounded by friends and family and that I get to have the one-step that I so wanted to have.